As I look at
facebook, read emails, and hear of those around me hurting so badly, I
am burdened for them all. It seems like in some way we are all “losing”.
Whether it be our health, finances, or relationships, someone is
struggling. I can clearly stand and say that my Father God has saved me
from so much, but I still struggle and am no different from all the others.
Yes, my survival
is nothing but a miracle. One that I will share until the day I die. But it's a daily struggle. I think about what it’s going to be like when I'm
older with this now broken body. I cry often in the arms of my husband with
pain that can't be described. This body is a daily reminder of my accident, my
struggles and what is to come. But one thing God places ever present in my mind
is a peace knowing that this body will pass away and a new one will be
given ( NOT BROKEN).
Often when my
pain reminds me of why I was hurt so badly (Satan tries to remind me of the
past), I am faced with the question of why? The song below says it all so easily…"Lord give me grace to forgive them, because I feel like the one losing”.
It’s become
a prayer for me. Yes, I have forgiven this man who struck me..but I can't forget
the pain, loss, and suffering. At those moments, my Father God whispers so clearly
(When “he” reminds you of your past…you just remind him of his future”). You see
we can be hurt, broken hearted, and just plain damaged by others. And as humans
we want to “get them back” for some reason. We feel that this will make it all
better. This is not the case. Anger, hatred, and revenge will eat you alive and
bring you to depths you never thought possible.
When we choose to
face our struggles head on, knowing that they are already in the hands of Father
God, we can make it through anything. I can say that I am happier now (broken, pain
filled, and damaged), more than ever before, because I have experienced the
clarity of God. He's here now and forever more. Just let him handle things.
Let's promise to
let Him shine thru our brokenness so that others can see Him thru us.
Jessica
*to read more from Jessica, check out her blog at: www.tragicallytransformed.wordpress.com
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